Sunday, November 11, 2007

Focus

You need to focus on what is in front of you. Focus on what you want and be passionate about grabbing it. I sometimes fall off track because of the silly things that push me off the rollercoaster. And as you're losing one by one, and each one grabs hold of something different and can't even turn around to watch you fall, you're stuck wondering why you grabbed hold of them at all. You wish yourself away as you skip parts of town and meet up with old ones to make you feel better. Then as you watch them walk away and leave you behind because it wasn't their responsibiliy to love you in the first place, you suddenly don't know where to go. You crawl back home to what you had and when they left you waiting for the train they had already left on, you wish you could have done better. You run in circles trying to find those somebodies that will baby you until you feel better, laugh at your jokes, and love you forever, but they don't exsist. You need to focus. Focus on what you need to do. Otherwise you fall off track, and there is nobody there to catch you. Nobody is even going to watch you fall. Grow up. This is your life. Start living it. You need nobody else to love you but you. I need nothing more than to love and be loved, but I can't lie...so I won't try. I am alone as are you and we need to be able to conquer the world without anybody else.

Focus Baby...Nobody Surrounds Your Failures...Only Your Success.

Vee,

Breathe with Ease

1 comments:

Oraclesage said...

Reading your blog inadvertently made me cry.... It described exactly the way I woke up feeling: I was missing my loved one, whom I had just said good-bye to days earlier, and just couldn't fathom not saying or being called "baby" anymore :( Thank you for giving my feelings shape and form, but esp. an outlet to be released :) xoxo